To be honest I have been putting it off for too long, but today I finally took the ladder and pruning shears out of our garage to get started on the grapevines, as well as the apple and pear trees.
Frankly speaking I feel somewhat dispirited. I don’t know where to start. Because I have been putting it off for so long the grapevines look like they have turned into an inextricable mass of vines and leaves.
I desperately decide to just get on with it. I feel like an explorer hacking my way through the jungle with a machete, not knowing where I will end up. The more I prune away, the clearer things become and I can start working more methodically, in accordance with the rules of pruning.
Before I know it the job is done. The grapevines are good to go and the future bunches that I’ve kept will receive more energy to grow into juicy grapes later this summer.
The parallel I see with life is that sometimes you cannot see the wood for the trees, you don’t know where to start – everything is too complicated, too much, too difficult. You just cannot see how you will ever get out of it or how you can possibly find a solution – you feel powerless.
It is very tempting to just do nothing, not to take any action and postpone indefinitely. What you also sometimes observe is that people show flight or avoidance behaviour and fill their days with entertainment. Which only makes them feel worse. A vicious circle. In her book ‘Better than Before’ Gretchen Rubin wrote: ‘Nothing is more exhausting than the task that is never started and strangely starting is often harder than continuing.’
There is a reason for the expression ‘a good start is half the battle’!